Mess

Have you been very busy? A friend asked.

As always with such questions, I simply said yes. Well, I probably have been, for the last 3 weeks or so, with work deadlines and the bustle of daily living (which happens to include a wedding and a funeral wake)

More than busyness though, I have been in a bit of a mess. Not an obvious mess like if you meet me you'll think she's a nutcase kind of mess, but one that is private, quiet and hidden. One that causes me to crave solitude, rest and sleep. To run away to be in another place.

I have felt this way before, and remember holing myself up in my wardrobe as a kid, just to be alone.

My brain tells me that I probably need more exercise and time for prayer.
It is being propped up right now by increasing amounts of caffiene I am feeding into my system.

I hope this mess will unravel itself soon and not tighten into knots.

9 comments:

ame said...

oh dear. try to schedule some time away from hustle and bustle in a quiet place. even half a day would be good. and if u want company to do nothing, i'd be glad to do that with you... i'd love some company to sit and be quiet with :)

yAnn said...

I hope that the busy period will be winding down soon and you will have some "me" time. :)

take care!

Anya's mom said...

Oh dear, hate to hear that! I had my closet days too. Do take a break as soon as your schedule permits. Gotta put a hold to adding new tasks onto your to-do list! - except to take a well-deserved ME-time! Prayers are with you.

blendedbaby said...

Oh I know that feeling. When you're not a Mom, you can go on a quick holiday or just sleep the Sunday away cos you know it's gonna take more than just two hours at a spa or a nap. Sigh.

Hope it gets better soon.

corsage said...

Thanks people. I seem to have fallen into a dark place recently for reasons I can't say here. I know I need a break but there isn't time for that in the near future. Praying for strength to pull through and to stay positive.

poiema said...

Praying for you too. Hugs!

Jus said...

Hang in there! The festive season can have that effect since its so so busy... take care and will keep ya in prayer!

mirrror said...

hi... can understand your feeling cos i'm feeling the same thing too. probably not for the same reasons. i believe you'll pull through. take care.

D said...

Why, my soul, are you downcast?
Why so disturbed within me?
Put your hope in God,
for I will yet praise him,
my Savior and my God. (Psalm 42:5)

This sermon encouraged me during my recent down time. Hope is helpful to you.

http://www.desiringgod.org/resource-library/sermons/spiritual-depression-in-the-psalms